I heard it when Awerbuck shot himself after being given a diagnosis of terminal cancer. And heard it after Bourdain's exit from the stage. Everyone is an expert on the matter until they are the ones facing unfaceable shit. In any case...I enjoyed Anthony Bourdain's shows as they were refined yet not too much...and they had an international flair that only those who venture from the shire would understand. When I heard he was into JuJitsu, I liked hm even more.

Yes he killed himself. But as the sage commented..."There but for the grace of God..."

We all have demons and darkness. And not all of us can submit them..and then for how long.

Here is an interesting collection of posts attributed to him.