Perfect.I'll add my 2 cents. It begins with a confession. I work in an NPE that has a sign as soon as you enter: "No weapons including concealed firearms allowed."
There was another thread on here recently I did not contribute to. It was a thread about leaving your firearm in the bathroom. I had NEVER done that. Ironically 3 days later I did. The owner of the business has a secretary that found my gang unit, G19 and reload sitting neatly on a shelf in the bathroom. I will ad that I am the general manager and am at the top of the food chain besides the boss and only answer to him.
After a heated discussion with them both and expressing that the sign was bull#×&! It basically came down to a point of our bank working with us and their policies. I again called out bullshit, expressed that I could give a fuck about some bankers "policies" and assured both of them that their thinking and unarmed practices would never protect me if something ugly went down. I work in an industry that is ripe for robberies and will be going home to my family that I am responsible for.
I learned a serious lesson that day. I screwed up and allowed myself to get distracted. I immediately called a friend of mine who works in the firearm industry and he berated me. He explained when in a public bathroom your gear goes in your undies around your ankles and NO WHERE ELSE!!! You can't pull your pants up without the whole picture and getting your gear in its proper place.
I was an idiot.
Anyway... I carried back in the next day and every day since. First thing I noticed was posture. I was on high alert worried the owner would be checking. He's a peace/love/flower type and I am on his radar. It's been 6 months and all is well.
My diagnosis: lift!
If I've learned anything from SI it's stop being a pussy. Stop making excuses. Lift some weights and get your body where your belly is sucked in and your chest is huge. I'm not hearing anything about genetics. You can lift. Get your chest 2" thicker in the front than your belly, stand with decent posture, and the butt of your gun will dissappear with any clothing that drapes.
My brother in law introduced me to SI in '13. I was in a horrible place that the men here have influenced in ways I will not express for years to come. Eventually I will for the benefit of the tribe. Essentially we all have different backgrounds and some of us more to overcome than others.
Putting a squat cage in my basement and lifting has been one of the best choices I've made since joining WT. I wanna bitch and cry and make excuses. You gentleman politely let me know there is no place for that.
This was a long rant. It is only meant to help. Lift more weight, work on your posture and chime in 6 to 12 months from here. Let's see if the thought pattern is the same or if you have discovered more awesomeness you can share with us.
Psalm dad. Nothing but respect sir. You can do incredible things. I can't wait to hear what you discover.
Thanks for your time and great advice. I'm working on the things you mentioned but it's great to get encouragement.